OMG

*this handsome guy is not me LOL

为什么！！！

我要去form 6 啦！！！

ZOMO 给我 matrix！！！

我知道 matrix 有好处啦~

但我是真的没想过要去啊~

而且我现在可能会去private UNI 嘛

想要先进 FORM 6 等我的offer letter~

manatau 竟然被选进matrix zzzzzz

今年还真是多事啊~

想要的却得不到，想要的却偏偏死都要给我~

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What a long story..

最近我不是说我有interview嘛

我只能说这一次还真是惊险的说

我真的是很恐怖拉

哈哈 个人认为拉~

从那里说呢？

5 o' clock in the morning

我就起身

like seriously 我没有睡到拉

大概2-3 点这样才睡到觉啊~

Drey mom 与 drey 就来载我鲁~

我们就去吃早餐咯，ngauchap!!

but 我只是吃放牛丸而已~

因为except 那个就没什么我会吃 哈

then 我就去了drey 的家鲁~

哈 我家没有internet

所以只好去drey 家interview 咯~

through SKYPE~ 哈

我就准时地9点等他们的RESPONSE 咯

就一直等啊等~ 等到10.30 这样 我就受不了！

直接拿电话CALL 他们~ 你知道回应是什么吗？

他们忘记了 zzzzz

我真的没想到他们会放我鸽子啊~

我就等啊等 ngai 很久啦

所以 我就去玩我的fb meanwhile 等他们的回复 哈哈

等到2 点多

他们叫我在30 分钟画东西给他们

所以我就画咯~

below is my drawings~

(很乱拉）

interview 的时候还算不错啦

but 英文讲到很broken 啦

我有ermmmm.. 很久~

哈哈 算是蛮顺利的说

只不过他们问我有什么建筑物是我喜欢的

当场我的脑袋blank啦

还好当时忽然出现twin tower

then 我才过关 哈哈

phew~

interview 完以后，心情是比较放松了许多~

=） however 我不是那么想去那里拉 but 如果真的有奖学金，可能会去呱~~ 哈哈

真的很多事情是不能够延迟

但自己却糊里糊涂地让它延迟

为何？我自己也不大懂为什么

或许，

很多事情就是不只是我的事情

而是也可能会是其他人的事情

我自己是没办法去看控制自如

天啊天，给我那么一点的指明

就那么那么的一~点~ 的引路光

哈

还真莫名其妙

无所谓啦 反正不是我说就算

机会失去了，的确是遗憾拉

但我至少会懂得以后要珍惜

哈 加油吧

人生

不会因这失去

而停止走动了

人生是美好的！

Right guys?　ｘＤ

不经意地看见这张照片

好怀念哦~ 哈哈

拿spm成绩的时候~ =）

这些图片真巧是我现在的心情 而且是进展的 zzzz

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HOPELESS

OMG tomorrow I gonna interview through skype.. qwertyuiopasdfghjkl haha

Even Better

Now I really still don't know what I want..

I mean which school I want to study..

Utar.. Hmm.. I don't even know I like or not..

I know the first thing to consider for studying in uni is $$..

Follow on is my feeling.. U know what i mean? like ngam bu ngam bah..

However, I think the first sight feeling or whatever feeling to uni

is important for me, u know?

If I feel ngam for the uni, I think I will be study smart and easier to concentrate

I don't know why.. This is my mind.. I know my family especially my auntie

is very care about the tuition fees.. Scare can't afford this amounts..

They make me feel that they can't afford me kay?

Plus they think that I should take a scholarship since I had took a good result..

But do you guys ever think about outside there is not only me who took a good

result kay? there are a lot of people who took a striking great result.. even better

than me kay? Btw a lot of scholarships are mostly given to bumiputera.. maybe

jus 1 or 5 percents are given to chinese people kay?

I really upset and disappointed on them.. don't think only you guys(my uncles

and auntie) can disappointed on me kay? every thing that u guys promised

wouldn't ever come true.. Just like my further study.. First I want go taiwan

then you guys said it's too expensive ( this one i know ) so i can't study

at taiwan..

But did you guys remembered the hope that you guys given to me last year..

I thought I can go taiwan manatau u guys spoiled it.. definitely made me feel so

so so disappointed.. Then you guys said can't go taiwan then go taylor la.. but

what's happened now? NO TAYLOR.. See! made me feel disappointed AGAIN.. All

because of money.. NO MONEY NO TALK.. I hate money u know? Then I had no

choice to study.. Now only wait for UTAR.. but come on i don't think i will like

that school.. Fine this is future things no one can expect manatau later i will like

there after i go there LOL.. Now i still want to go taylor even taiwan.. But all

need money so I will take action to find SCHOLARSHIP to solve the money

problem.. I don't want rely on my family anymore.. they are very not care my

feeling..

=) life will be even better than before..

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BTW I kinda like this t-shirt!?

时刻

我有时候

真的 不明白大人们的想法

真的 有时候他们并没有帮到忙

真的 反而让人更加烦恼与不安心情

真的 他们有时候当然有自己看法与经验

真的 他们虽说关心我的感受但我不这么觉得

真的 他们只不过表面上很Care 我但事实却不同

真的 他们都有自己的家庭让我觉得我只不过是个负担

真的 但“会在金钱上帮助我”只让我觉得是个不思议的任务

真的 你们的确让我觉得你们就是无法在金钱与精神上帮助了我

真的 你们只会问“你觉得怎样？”只让我觉得你们的话语很自相矛盾

真的 每当我要怎样你们都会说这个不好那个又不好而你们的这个却很好

真的 如果真的不能在支撑我的学费就直接告诉我吧我真的无所谓，好不好吗？

真的 看清了许多才知道每个人都有自己的自私与不好而每个人却不会发现而改过

真的 如今我才学习要变得更加坚强是有点太迟了但人人都有说“有心就不怕迟”，对吧？

真的 “哈哈” 人生就是要这样才更加有价值可言并且会使人变得更加不同，更加坚强于他人